I Am Somebody

I Am Somebody

Two times in the Gospels the disciples are caught asking who will be great in the Kingdom. It’s not a bad question. In fact, asking questions about ambition is something I encourage younger people to be serious about for how we define greatness sets the course for our lives.
What does interest me most is the differences in the two times – three years apart – it is asked in the Gospel of Luke.
The first is in the early days of the ministry where the words tell us the disciples are having a debate among themselves. It’s not an argument. It’s almost a good-natured competition. They are going at each other about greatness and what it means. How you define greatness early on makes a difference…and you cannot know unless you ask. The word for greatness here is “mega” and it has two different meanings. First, it describes size. I doubt they were interested in which disciple would be the largest. Second, it means rank or importance compared to someone else. “Who am I compared to someone else and what external measure will define greatness for me?” If we desire largeness we can step on a scale every morning. If what we desire requires regular comparison to others, it is not so easy and far more dangerous.
The question is never settled easily or all at once, is it? In the essay “Dreams Are Dangerous; They Uncover Your Bones” by Diane Glancy, she speaks for many of us writing, “I am in love with ambition. I am burdened with ambition. I ask for ambition to come and bother me. I ask for ambition to leave. Ambition is a statement that defines me. I am unsettled by ambition. I am torn with ambition. I am certain about ambition. Ambition is a blessing. Ambition is a curse.”
But that’s not the last time it comes up for the disciples. It’s still on their minds three years later toward the end of the ministry. What has happened in those three years?  Adoring crowds have grown. Miracles have made them famous and sought after. They’ve beat the experts at their own game. They have been associated with a genuine celebrity.  And now it bubbles up again – but it’s a different question. This time they are not debating. They are having a heated argument. They are not asking about the nature of true greatness but the words here read “what is it to appear to be great?” They are asking, like others who have experienced some success, how to keep this going. It’s not a legitimate question any longer. It’s not the start-up question of the young but the question that often comes with success. It’s actually the worst question possible because all the answers are wrong. It’s one thing to have a genuine interest in the qualities of greatness and another to desire only the outward show but not the inward substance.
What does Jesus say to them this time?
Don’t become a Benefactor – one who starts out to do good but falls into the trap of lording over people and loving the flattery. It’s the irony of doing good, isn’t it, that we can move so quickly from being motivated by doing good to becoming anxious about prestige, power and rank. We want to be authorities and highly regarded.
But then he says we are to be “neoteros” or people who are always new at something, always learning, always a novice. Nothing keeps us humble and vibrant like always being a beginner at something.
Finally, we are to be “diakonos” or someone who chooses to serve with confidence and competence. We are not conscripted or coerced. We don’t serve reluctantly or look for recognition. We are to be people who know their strengths and where they fit.
I said to a group recently that I cannot define greatness for anyone else, but I can encourage everyone to consider these three questions:
What will help me avoid the lure of being a benefactor desiring prestige, power and rank comparing myself to others?
How will I stay a lifelong neoteros, a beginner and always new at something?
How will I grow as a diakonos and learn to use my strengths with confidence in places that are useful to others?
The challenge of ambition never goes away, but it is in that tension that we learn for ourselves what it means to be great.


  1. Great words, Fred. This “neoteros” concept reminded me of a quote defining an expert: “An expert is a man who has made all the mistakes which can be made, in a narrow field.” – Niels Bohr. Often times folks chose to hire an “expert” over a “neoteros”, which I understand but at times find frustrating.

    • Jon – Thank you. Yes, the word comes from the Latin meaning “to try” so you are right. It is someone who has tried everything. I looked up the trend line of the use of the word and it begins to spike in the early 1900’s and continues to rise.

  2. Thank you for this, Fred! It really hit the spot!

    • Thank you, Cathy. I knew it would hit something but “the spot” is better than “the wall” I think.

  3. Thank you for taking the time to write these thought-provoking comments.

    • Writing doesn’t take that much time, actually. It’s the chewing on it for a few days before that is the real task.

  4. Excellent for people who are teaching or influencing others especially young people.

    • Yes. Fortunately, I had someone you knew as a guide when I was young. Now you are playing that role with others.

  5. Excellent write up

    • Thank you, Jeremy. I appreciate your reading the blog.


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